hesitation is my latest enemy. caught between lines as i struggle to come to a decision. leaves me with a queasy feeling in my stomach. a conflict between the heart and mind is always difficult to resolve---which side should i listen to? there are endless possibilities with every step i take, and there is no definite right or wrong. i guess sometimes my actions are destined, and certain outcomes are fated to be. but somehow, i am dissatisfied with how things turn out. and there is this nagging feeling that if i had been more proactive, the outcome would have made me happier.

ahh well, jus having too much to think recently......